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well its almost 3am and i'm back from the big lan party.. it lasted for hell and ever.. from 6pm - 2:30am... the first game was quake 3.. there was a team game.. naturally i assume i'm going to dominate.. but some confusion at the start of me not knowing what team to join made me enter the game about 4 minutes late.. so they had a considerable lead.. my team was decent, a few jobbers.. the other team had two leets on it. i strugged to get up there in kills.. i started getting in my quake mood and lead our team to......... DEFEAT.. but i had the most kills on our team... 30... the other team's highest had 32.. so i am thinking i would have won that one had i started at the same time..
after that bull shit was over, it was time for unreal tournment 2003 team death match.. i figure i'm gonna get my ass kicked so bad cause i never play this game.. well before the game starts, i put in my secret weapon in the Cd-rom tray.... the album "vulgar display of power" by pantera.. the adrenaline started flowing now.. as i DOMINATED ut2003.. i was getting killing spree after killing spree.. Won that one by a considerable margin.
Next comes Battlefield.. now i suck so bad at this game, it was the 2'nd time i've played it and it was just so different. the first round we won some how. i think mostly my team mates were good at it.. next round we lost... and the final round we lost, but at this point i was getting good, and i had the most kills on our team, and i turned poor evan into a nervous wreck from our close fights.
next game was Call of Duty.. my first time playing, a lot of like battlefield but better i think.. well the first game we kicked ass.. we won and won good. the next round my friend stanley had to leave and that left us at a very bad disadvantage.. 3 on 6.. but still.. with pantera blasting in my ears, we overcame the odds and won. By this time i'm sick to my stomache because i got so much into the game.. i was a nervous wreck and very excited.. but then after our victory, my mood changes.. now heres where the BULL SHIT comes in to play.. there were 3 teams... we had to fight team 1 first to elminate them.. then fight team 3.. but instead of the usual 30 minute, 100 frag limit game.. i twas now 15 minut 30 frags.. and it was on a SHITTY SHITTY map.. i hated tha tmap.. we lost.. such bull shit..
the last game was Counter strike... and let me tell you... i feel violated after playing with those guys that won.. they were exctream elitists. i've never seen anything like it.. they memorized the maps better than their own houses.. they knew exactly when to shoot, what angle to shoot at, and what patterns to walk in.. they were professionals.. they beat the HELL out of our team.. 23 victorys for them compared to our 1.. and we won that one game due to some kind of miracle.
so in the end it was all a lot of fun. i won a poster of some kind of mermaid chick nVIDIA shit. a lot of people won cool shit like a case of BAWLS drink, a wireless keyboard and mouse.. and some other neat stuff.Current Mood:  tired Current Music: Pantera - "Walk" |
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i'm going to see if writing in here makes me feel better. i suspect that only bob would end up reading this anyway, if anyone, and he already knows the deal..
to start it off.. around 2 weeks ago i met this girl named erin malone on myspace.com she lived in berea, so i figure, hey maybe we should hang out.. so i drive down there the next day or so. and we get alone good and i end up staying a long time that night.. so that was fun and all.. then comes the day of teh 'date' where jason & his gf & myself & erin go to lex to eat a chinese place and i thought it went spectacular.. i was beginning to see great potential in this one..
so every day, since that 'date', i had been driving to berea every night. staying around 4 hours every night or so.. it took me a while to feel more comfortable around her, but about mid-way through the 'week of erin' the hand holding began..
then my best friend jerry steps into the picture.. i take him to berea to meet every one.. he immediately hits it off with this hot black girl named laquinta.. and they eventually end up dating.. see bob's journal for details.. but during the days that jerry was there, things with erin and i seemed to elevate.. she was feeling much more comfortable around me.. the holding of hands escilated into cuddling up every time we were with each other..
during the night of my big shinanigan party at bobs, busseys & and bangums. erin gets sick really late, around 6am.. and asks if she can go to my apt to sleep. so i say yes. and we go there. and lay in the bed untill 1pm or so.. and regardless of what bobby thinks. there was no fuxing. but just lots of, what seemed to me, as closeness through cuddling..
well i guess the final night of the era was later that night. when i took jerry & bangum to berea.. where bangum walked around with his ass out and sang songs of jesus. this night was also the closest we've been to each other i think.. bangum even thought we were dating.. and i thought we might have been talking at least..
but a day later i find out what i feared.. 'we should just be friends for now' hmmm well that sucks ass. i mope about it all day.. then the day after that i find out she NEVER liked me like i liked her in the first place and feels 'bad' because i thought she liked me.. W...T....F.........
well this pretty much has devistated me, as this topic is very important to me. just when it seemed like i had found someone worthwhile.. she never cared for me.. thats a big shot to the self-esteme..
well.. i'm going up there tonight. in support of bangum.. its going to be hard to see her, even though we are still 'friends'.. its just difficult to view her as only that still..Current Mood:  gloomy Current Music: Sparta - "Cut Your Ribbon" |
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Jan. 3rd, 2005 @ 06:22 am
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I really like the cds you gave me. Three Evils is my favourite song.Current Mood:  thankful Current Music: Coheed and Cambria - Three Evils |
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it's like perpetual imbalance. i'm not sure of a lot of things. usually after i'm completely sure on them. holding on to little reminders of specific times has grown somewhat pathetic. i wish i knew more html code to jazz this thing up. but i'll keep it simple for now.Current Mood:  aggravated |
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